content warnings:

depression

apologies

(the apologies are part of the act)

sorry, I’m just reading some raw journal entries today

I didn’t have the time to edit them together this week

no, that’s a lie -

I didn’t have the energy.

sometimes I ask too much of myself

sometimes I ask too little

It’s so much easier to let yourself down

than to let someone else down,

isn’t it?

too embarassed to show up as myself

so I come in wearing a mask

I’m unworthy of love meant to last

go the other way fast